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OKAYY, soo i soo badly wanted to just sit here and blog. BUt my computer is down and im using someone else's just to let yall know...we're in the midst of moving and yada yada so I wont be blogging for a few weeks but bare with me!

and the kids I call friends from saturate are leaving in a few days for Africa. Soo all you Prayer Warriors out there...Pray protection over them and that they fulfill God's purposes while down in Swaziland. And that not only to they change Africa but they bring something back that changes Baton Rouge for Christ =]] Please and Thank you!

Gahh, Jesus is soo amazing. He's just messed up my life and I have just changed so much over the summer. All for the better. kjdshgkdjshgsjdhg. I cant explain the things he's done in my life. I just want to serve him.

Aside from that, in a few weeks...Im heading to Jacksonville, Florida to audition for American Idol just for the heck of it. Yepp, no lie. So pray for me. Hopefully, while Im down there I can check out Celebration Church =] love those guys!

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Many nights i woke in tears,

experiencing feelings wose than fear

i sobbed, i cried, for reasons untolld

this repeated act was getting old

i always seemed filled with glee

but my inside feelings no one would ever see

i always laughed and put on a good smile

to try and cover the real way i felt every once in awhile

when i was surrounded by friends and having a good day

the pain seemed to disapear, to go away

but once i was all alone without a good thought to think

the painful feelings would show up at my doorsteps,

before i could blink

there i would stay, and sit and weep

i had to put a stop to this selfpity in which i did not want to keep

i seemed to be trapped inside my own self

until the fateful day i saw a bible on my shelf

while still wiping tears from my eyes,

i reached for that book,

my new guide

i started to read it as i flipped through each page

no longer feeling sadness or a depressing rage

i had finally escaped satins sinful ways

no longer trapped in a mind rattling maze

my heart now no longer mourns,

for those thoughts are now the least of my cares

jesus christ has helped sew the tears

many nights i now lay awake

with joyful feelings no one can take

i now think of much more

for my heart is now no longer sore

i think of the world's many wonders

things such as this are what i now ponder

i think of the future and what it may hold

of the many mysteries ready to unfold

i dream dreams bigger than me

making these dreams real is the key

i also think of how thankful i should be

for the life he has given me

as i once thought, people must pity me

i now think they must envy me

for all that i have, they must truly see

for i have a savior and hes living in me

-jaden