the life i live....

Before you read this, I should caution you: you may or may not get offended by my personal opinions. And as for my DISCLAIMER: my views and feelings do not express that of Healing Place Church's and keep in mind Im not pointing my finger at anyone in particular.

Interested?

Sooo yeahhh, so its been forver since my last blog because Ive been so consumed with church, school, work, and not to mention Gustav...that dreadful mexican hurricane. (i heart mexico so no offense) But since I started working at my job Ive really been opened up to the harsh realities of life and Ive started to notice just how stuck up the christian world can become.

"I love your Christ, but not your christians. Your christians are nothing like your Christ" -Ghandi

Thats right I busted the Ghandi quote soo sue me. or just get over it. I love this quote because it is soo true. Im a chashier at my uncle's gas station. Ive become friends with soo many different types of ppl. There's a 17 year old with a 2yr old little girl. 3 college boys who love to party and wear eyebrown piercings, lip rings, and tatoos, a black lady who never stops talking, a hippie, and not to mention some of our usual customers, the tatooed truck man whos as big as the rock (dwayne johnson), the alcoholic who comes in everyday, the old man and his girlfirend, the hooker, the Jamacian who sings sex songs, the mailmen who wear the tight short shirts, and the teen from school who finds someone to buy his cigarettes for him everyday. You think Im exaggerating?? Im not. Its all true and this job has become a decent part of my life now. One thing all these people have in common...their not christians. another thing. they know I am. But it doesnt matter because Ive realized that before this job there is a good chance I would have never given any of these people the time of day. Out of fear, or maybe in the back of my head I really did think I was better because I knew the truth and they didnt. But then God humbled me. And ive realized that he loves these people just as much as he loves Joyce Meyers or any great spiritual leaders. He loves them like he loves me. They are in fact people. Maybe many of you think I should be shoving my beliefs down their throats....WHITNESS TO THEM...but im thinking differently. My ministry is this: representing God by loving people. I never want to judge anyone because fact is. crhistian or not...none of us are perfect and theres a reason. I love these faces I see at work everyday, and I love them no matter what theyve done, what they're doing, or what they look like. God hung out with the robbers and the thiefs because he knew he would never reach anyone by staying in the little christian bubble soo many of us have placed ourselves in. I pray that these people see the difference in me and they hear me when I talk about God and speak of my church. Ive already had people ask me questions and I see that as opportunities. Here is the wisdom of a 16 year old girl who learning more each day...treat everyone the same. Love people. Goth, punk, prep, remember there just like you in soo many ways and youll never realize just how many unheard stories are out there if you dont take the time to give someone else your time. Dont turn your nose up at anyone. Bcause your not better than them no matter what. Money, appearance, whatever. It doesnt matter. God loves us all and his eyes theres something great about all of us. so reach out. Youd be surpised at the people you can befriend just by breaking down the barriers and getting over yourself. Stay strong. Have wisdom and courage. and please, think about this. Are you a stuck up christian? or do you have love for everyone? Do you agree with the Ghandi quote? And if so, what are you gonna do to change it? They say the number one reason people are turned away from God is because of the church. Let us not keep it that way. I was with some of my "christian" friends the other day and they saw a girl dressed a certain way and suddenly they started making all sorts of assumptions about the girl being a druggie, or doing bad stuff on the weekened and I couldnt help but get a little irritated, they had never even met the girl, and when I looked at her I could honestly find nothing wrong with the way she was dressed. Red skinnies, ghetto hat, she had her own style. Idkk. I just feel like God is opening my eyes to a world I never noticed before because I was too consumed with my "christian" bubble lifestyle to see it. And it truly is amazing all that hes doing in my life.


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random.

OKAYY, soo i soo badly wanted to just sit here and blog. BUt my computer is down and im using someone else's just to let yall know...we're in the midst of moving and yada yada so I wont be blogging for a few weeks but bare with me!

and the kids I call friends from saturate are leaving in a few days for Africa. Soo all you Prayer Warriors out there...Pray protection over them and that they fulfill God's purposes while down in Swaziland. And that not only to they change Africa but they bring something back that changes Baton Rouge for Christ =]] Please and Thank you!

Gahh, Jesus is soo amazing. He's just messed up my life and I have just changed so much over the summer. All for the better. kjdshgkdjshgsjdhg. I cant explain the things he's done in my life. I just want to serve him.

Aside from that, in a few weeks...Im heading to Jacksonville, Florida to audition for American Idol just for the heck of it. Yepp, no lie. So pray for me. Hopefully, while Im down there I can check out Celebration Church =] love those guys!

Saved.

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Many nights i woke in tears,

experiencing feelings wose than fear

i sobbed, i cried, for reasons untolld

this repeated act was getting old

i always seemed filled with glee

but my inside feelings no one would ever see

i always laughed and put on a good smile

to try and cover the real way i felt every once in awhile

when i was surrounded by friends and having a good day

the pain seemed to disapear, to go away

but once i was all alone without a good thought to think

the painful feelings would show up at my doorsteps,

before i could blink

there i would stay, and sit and weep

i had to put a stop to this selfpity in which i did not want to keep

i seemed to be trapped inside my own self

until the fateful day i saw a bible on my shelf

while still wiping tears from my eyes,

i reached for that book,

my new guide

i started to read it as i flipped through each page

no longer feeling sadness or a depressing rage

i had finally escaped satins sinful ways

no longer trapped in a mind rattling maze

my heart now no longer mourns,

for those thoughts are now the least of my cares

jesus christ has helped sew the tears

many nights i now lay awake

with joyful feelings no one can take

i now think of much more

for my heart is now no longer sore

i think of the world's many wonders

things such as this are what i now ponder

i think of the future and what it may hold

of the many mysteries ready to unfold

i dream dreams bigger than me

making these dreams real is the key

i also think of how thankful i should be

for the life he has given me

as i once thought, people must pity me

i now think they must envy me

for all that i have, they must truly see

for i have a savior and hes living in me

-jaden

Bonfire.

This is a picture of me and some of my crazy best friends having a random bonfire at kenny's house. Fire, smores, hot dogs, and fireworks being thrown at one another while on fire, yess, it happened.

Its just been on my mind....

OKAYYY, sooo Im usually the type of girl who is constantly on the go and rarely do I ever see my house for more than a couple of days. Basically, I stay busy. However, these past few days Ive been in bed, home alone, and sick. Thats right...nothing but me, food, and payper view. The worst combination ever to be mushed together. And here is why, because believe it or not I am what you would call.....a hopeless romantic. Am I boy crazy? NO. Am I a huge Girly Girl who just loves Matthew Mcaughnahay or even a little Brad Pitt? Again Ill say, NO. But I am a romantic. Ask me in a room full of crowded people, and theres a good chance Ill deny it. But facts or facts. And I just love a good chick flick. Which brings me back to why me being alone in my house with Pay Per View and the freedom to choose between thirty something good chick flicks which ive already watched a good bit of, is just simply not good. Because then Ill get in that ice cream eating, sappy yell at the screen, dont kiss that girl mood. (REMINDER: i have nothing better to do cuz I am sick and highly contagous.) I rarely allow myself to fall into this phase but when I do, its just not pretty. And then of course, when I started watching camp rock today and Joe Jonas began singing that love song to Demi Lovato, I began thinking...WHy God WHY!? When do I get that!?! Anyone else feel me on this?? hopefully, in a less dramtic way of course?!? Im sure there are others out there...or at least I hope there is...that just cant wait to find that certain someone that are simply a perfect fit for you. The someone who will make you laugh, allow you to be yourself, towards you will no longer have to watch the movies and wish it was you. Soo to all the romantics out there, Guys and Girls of all ages, here are some words of encouragement, That Someone is out there, the someone God handpicked for you, and the special somebody is waiting for you just like your waiting for them. SOo just hang in there, dont settle, youll have them sooner than you think. And when you do, It will be SOO worth the wait. Amy Phillips, a good friend of mine, once told me a quote I rather liked by Christine Caine and it was, "Seek God. Run towards him, and one day youll look over and happen to see someone running in the same direction...and youll wave. and theyll wave back. and then youll smile, theyll smile. ANd suddenly youll collide with that person and both start heading for God together." Sooo yess, just hang in there all you single people out there and in keep in mind that even though your future love story may not include Julia Roberts, Cameron diez, Richard Gere, or even Brad Pitt...It will happen. It will. And when it does, It will be real, passionate, and on fire for God. And youll finally have the someone whos waiting for you =]] well, Im outt.... Benadryll awaits. as does a nice nap.

peace out fellow bloggers.


and your thoughts on this would be lovely =] hope this made ya smile.

Submerge 2008

was absolutely amazing.

It was pretty awesome, the first service, as soon as the music started, I started bawling. And for those who know me, crying is not something that comes easily too me. But Idkk, before camp lately I just had felt soo lost and clueless as to who I was and the minute I stepped into that sanctuary and the moment God's prescence dropped. Its like I was home. I once again found what I was looking for in Christ, as always. Then the next two services...i seemed to be holding back a bit. Until the last service I stood in the back of the room really thinking about Tweez's messages about telling someone of your secrets, the ones that cause you pain and burdens in everyday life. I kept battling this. Telling myself not to tell anyone, but I knew that wasnt of God. SOoo i finally had a breakthrough, I found an amazing leader (shannon) and I told her some things I had never told anyone. Things that have just held back for soo long. And she prayed over me and I felt God speaking to me, through her. And suddenly, I was free. God took the heaviness of these secrets and bottled up feelings and he just lifted them off me. It was like he told me, "Ill carry this for you. Seek me, and dont worry about anything else" It was soo mindblowing. And even though these last few days Ive been in bed sick and sore with strep and fever. I still couldnt be happier =] Camp was unforgetable. And the minute I left that place, I wanted to go back soo badly. I miss everyone already.

Free H20...

fa shO!!! yeahhh soo after saturate on thursday....me, johnny, angelle, lacie, kenny, paul, caleb, trevin, scott, emily, rachel, morgan, thomas, austin, branden, and whole bunch of other amazing people went and did a water outreach which was awesome. God is amazing =]

and then afterwards a few of us went to M@cs ropeswing to chill out and escape the heat. Alot of interesting things happened there. Thomas made a ball of mudclay that was the size of a basketball, Caleb was in a tree for and hour or so, and me and Angelle had an interesting talk which was rudely interrupted a couple of times by dem pesky boys. haha. anywhoos, heres a pic from the outreach. One of us looking at a honking truck and the other of the boys riding in my car ad being horrible backseat drivers!!! geez. well, peace out and God bless Bloggers!! love you all.

Jaden.

So I had extra time on my hands....

lots been goin on. God has been doing soo many amazing things in my life with Saturate. Im meeting alot of new wonderful people. And Im learning more and more each day about Jesus, as well as Im learning more about myself. God has really been speaking to me these past few days about sacrificing time for him, which Ive been doing! I just want soo badly to please him and to play a part in glorifying his kingdom, can I get an amen? Kudos to all the fellow saturate students and leaders...yall are doing amazing jobs and Ive said a special prayer for all of you!

Aside from saturate, I got a job. ick. Ill leave it at that.

And my leg got beat up pretty bad because I was the first girl ever to get the courage to actually swing off the rope swing at the Glory to God motorcross. Needless to say, it didnt go soo well and I didnt have a very good hold of the rope and have now earned the nickname--skid. I suffered a major wipeout and went crashing into the Ground and THEN into the water. ha. Shortly after, my friend Austin experienced the same thing (love ya A!) and soo now wipeouts at the rope swings are known as pulling a "Jaustin" clever eh? Props to Tramar and the guys for that one. haha.

But yeahhh, alots been going onn. Im always busy, always on the goo. And i could tell yall alot more but I doubt you wanna sit here and read this uber long blog. Sooo peace out. Check ya later!

Boot Camp!!!

Okayyy soo a few days ago I returned from Boot Camp. Which was intense and nothing at all what I expected. Talk about a wake up call. I thought it would be like a min version of camp (which is always fun) but boy was I wrong! Boot Camp was intense, hectic, and miserable but I gotta tell ya, it was worth every minute!!! I felt like I was getting slapped in the face and being told, "you thought being a christian would be smooth sailing???" Obviously not, I learned alot. But it was all for the better.

BUT DUDE, we slept on the floor of the dreamcenter on Winbourne with no air conditioning. We were frying eggs on the floor with the lights turned off. (not literally) But we prolly, could have it was hott as a mug up in there! And then they had 2 hours for 100 girls to shower...and they only had one shower at first. haha. 90 seconds showers baby. Literally, stop watches were involved. Then the leaders got a kick out of waking us up with water guns at 2 am, which was pleasant. haha. What an experience! Ill never forget this. And I found a new love for a game called magic shoes. I discovered my competitive side when we played this which I never knew I had. GAHH. Im sooooo excited to be doing saturate this summer, you people have no idea!!!! And I really pray God radically changes me, Because I know lately Ive been being kinda selfish lately wiith thinking with all I have to do at that church...Im always on the go soo I actually forget to stop for awhile and spend time with God and to seek him which is the whole purpose of all that I do. SOO thats not kool. And I got to change it. And I will. But yeahh, this will be an unforgetable summer and I knwo God hass soo much in store for me as well as the other interns. We're doing outreaches starting tomorow. SCORE! and sooo it begins. Later. Peace out.

ah, The Thespys....

The Thespy awards were last night. Which is basically an award thing for the kids in all the dutchtown theatre classes. We met at Snos at around 6 clock. I was presented with a hard workers award. My teacher said the award was for those who went the extra mile to do well in the acting gig. We had to give a speech afterwards which i was pretty proud of mine, if i do say soo myself. And I got to say a finaly goodbye to some of my senior friends whom i will miss. And although, I dont really care for this picture of me...my good friend joyce (the blonde) looks quite lovely =]

and p.s. My other friend, Taylor, says hey to the Blog World. She is quite entrigued with the fact that people actually have blogs. haha.

well, im out.

much love <33

p.s. HPC BOOT CAMP NEXT WEEK!

3 days left of school....woot woot.

check it out..

Ahh yesss, the rumors are true.

I got glasses.

as well as my drivers license.

not exactly the best combination but o well.

so now im a legal driver.
hmmm...you may wanna stay away from the interstate.

haha jk jk.

ooo p.s. everyone keep Angelle Carmouche and Paul Musso's mom in your prayers. Their both in the hospital.

Knghts of the Rad Table....

its been awhile Bloggers. soo sup?

haha.

soooooo last wednesday was the big premiere of the play i was in called "knights of the rad table" its a spoof on the story of king authur where i played morgan la fey the villain of the story. It turned out pretty well and thursday after our last show. Me and the cast went and ate at CHili's. Gahhh, i love those people. I sware working on plays like this are really kool. YOu meet alot of great people and you become like a family with the cast. I look forward to working with most of them again next year in Theatre 2.

the friday me, tor, mella, candace, mama p, and angelle went to DUTCHTOWNS got TALENT. wooohooo. haha. wasnt too shabby. kudos to our people ashlyn and josh who did a great job! we were rooting for yall! and my good friend lauren who also did an amazing job.

Anyways, summer is close and I cant wait! Ill be at church all the time, doing saturate and outreaches and whatnot. whos doing the same? HPC is the best place to be. (no ryhme intended)

Get my license hopefully in a week. And ill also get a job this summer. ick. and i just got back from a slammin 12 o clock church service where this awesome australian dude spoke. but yeahhh. theres the update for now. Later.

working at the car wash....

Well, Hello Bloggers out there. I just thought that I would share with yall that this has been a very good weekened.

Friday--I met up with some friends at the infamous Hello Sushi. Part of the HPC domain. haha. yeahh, me, mella, rebecca, em whootin, and tori met up at 6:30. Its amazing that I go eat at Hello Sushi alot and yet I dont even like sushi. ANyways, then after wards we ran in the rain across the parking lot to a nearby starbucks, ah yes, starbucks, where we hung out til got picked up. Few of us went back to mella's house.

THE real fun began early saturday morning at our carwash!!!! It was awesome. Me, Mella, Tramar, Rebecca, Matt, Thomas, Angella, Angella's mom, brother, and sister, and heather had fun holding up our signs and washing cars making up to close to 400 bucks for the Africa trip. We planned on staying there from 10 to 12. and ended up staying 10 to 3:30. It was fun, although we're all sunburnt and worn out of some of the few customers that hung around for hours complaining how we "missed a spot" seriously, this one lady was about to drive us crazy and when we finally got rid of her she showed up with another car. GAhhh, we thought she would never leave. We had some pretty stange charcters. And some of us girl were a little weirded out by some of the creepy old guys that came around to idkkk hit on us?? or just act plain weird. idkk. But yeahh, me, mat, thomas, and mella were the last ones there picking up. Then after, me, matt, thomas, and trinity (thomas's sister) went to the mall, and then went to the movie where I lost my movie picking privelages because I wanted to see Nim's Island we had to sit through two hours of pure torture...Nim's Island was the worst movie ever. I deff would not reccomend it to anyone of any age. NOt to mention, Matt almost got us kicked out of Taco Bell as well as an older couple. It was quite the day. Okayy, does anyone ever do that thing when they say "lets go to the mall" and then you get to the mall just to find out there is absolutely nothing to do soo you wonder why yall chose to go there in the fiirst place. Well, yeahh, that was us. Moral of the story---when deciding your plans for the day, make sure its something you actually wanna do. haha. Of corse, theres not much to choose from in this town. gahhh. well, in out. peace.

Im Back....

ah yess, making a come back to the blog world. ive been gone for awhile due to my internet being down buts its back.

SOO i figured i would tell yall about this past monday's chick night which was amazing as always. I got there at 5 30 to start serving it up. I had to give out cotton candy, greet people, pick up the setup, and serve lemonaide. Although I only got to enjjoy a few minutes of service its always awesome to be a part of something at HPC. but yea, the lady who preached was really good. Im bad with names but I weirdly enough, my dad dated her in college. wow. im also bad at remembering to take pitures of my life events soo the pic above is one of a chick night not that particular chick night. P.S. car wash at regions bank in st amnt saturday at 10. SHOW UP! we're raising money for kids to go to africa. It will be slamming.

Lots to do.

okay soo to update yall-

ive been busy with easter coming up and all. which its like tomorow.

some things that recently happened:

-my dog almost died yesterday (but shes thankfully okay) she almost choke because my brothers fnger got caught in her collar somehow and was twisted up towards where she was choking and he was in pain. but we ccut the collar off just in the nick of time.

-today i woke up early and went to meet Tori, Kelly, Jordan, and Conan at the annex to do an awesome outreach at the assisted living place. It was kool, we played hangman and met this on little lady named miss peggy who was quite the character. her fav. phrase was "strut yourself baby" hahahaha. and they had this amazing dog named Carter.

-later on, today, ill meet Tori and whoever else at the church to help out with the 5 o clock service, even though im extremely tired. gahh. But all for the glory of GOd! amen.

-then tomorow, easter with family and movies with this guy I recently met named Thomas. whos Really kool and very sweet. soo yeah, as of now. that my life in a bucket.

Always on the GO. Chyeah.

okayy here it goes...

Okay people, there is something that Ive been hiding that i thnk i should get off my chest...something that alot of people dont know about me (sarcasm)... and that would be that i am a big oprah fan. and no this is not a joke, thats right, im a huge dork who recently caught drift of the new show called Oprah's Big Give. Before you start laughing, hear what the shows about...its basically a bunch of random people thrown together and given loads of money...the catch, they have to give it all away, spend it on someone else, OR get creative by using it to help one person or alot of people out temendously. I love this show. I think we should all learn from it. Seriously, when is the last time you have honestly sat down and thought of an amazing way to help some one out? Whats the last big nice thing youve done for someone? Whens the last time someone has done something for you? share...

Meet Bob. met him in Disney World.

Random picture.

I didnt feel like talking about my long day at the DMV, which didnt go well. The End.

Have you seen Penelope?

I wacthed it yesterday and I just loved it.

You should see it.

Of course, i might just be a kid at heart and fairytales arent your thing.

But James Mcavoy is cute, right?

Have you seen God?

OKay Bloggers, today I heard something pretty cool on the radio. These Dj's were talking about how God is everywhere, and when you think you dont get to see him you actually see him more than you think. For example, seeing a single mom work two jobs and raise three kids-thats God. A dog running across the highway but missing three cars by mere inches-thats God. A complete stranger genuinly helping someone out withoug expecting anything in return-its God. Thats right, even though there is alot of bad in this world there is also a lot of good because God is everywhere. Where have you seen God today?

For me, it was today in class when we had to watch one of those lame Dont Do Drugs videos...usually I always thought kids didnt pay attention to those videos and could honestly care less but when the video got to the part about telling the story of a kid dying of drug overdose...I literally saw kids all over the class room wiping tears from their eyes as they actually listened to the video. I was shocked. That was God.

what an exciting life i live =] *sarcasm*

Okay so yesterday was sunday and me and theresa engulfed 12 lbs of amazing crawfish. Then afterwards we went to Kathy's house where alot of our friends were just hanging out.

Then today was monday (gross, right?) anyways, soo we had a day of testing but got out early around 12:44ish. Afterwards, theresa and my OTHER two best friends: Johnny and Hayden came over and played some guitar hero and raided the refrigerator and pantry. What else can you expect from those two? We ate a whole pot of chili cheese dip. Well, at least me and the guys did. Theresa is a healthy eater on the weekdays. lol. But yeah, life group tonight. Woot. im tired.

Random Thought: i dont have one, what are yours?

The perfect man...

Ah yess, meet Theresa. My best friend who in the picture above you can fiind her falling victim to the chick flick frenzy that continues to sweep the nation. Last night consisted of food, chick flicks, and talking about boys. Classic right? We stayed up late, slept in late, and made a few prank calls. For those wondering, the chick flick we were watching was in fact "the Perfect man" starring Heather Locklear.

Today when we woke up we were proud to say it took us 10 minutes to get up and ready which is a record, if we do say so ourselves. Ah yes, we're quite proud. Got ready, ran some errands. Went to Albertsons. and then rushed home to help my crazy party planning expert of mother with her latest mission which is my little sisters 5th birthday that revolves around an Alice and Wonderland theme. The kids got to paint roses and jump in a spacewalk that looked like a teapot. YOu can even see me above showing off my mad hatter's hat. For those who've seen the classic movie. Happy very unbirthday! check back later.

911

OKaY! so i know there are some computer people out their reading. can anyone tell me how to display my blogroll on my site?

muchos gracias.

Guess what!

Good News first: I auditioned to be a part of the play makers cast and got in! Woot woot! Ill be doing a two week program this summer in downtown baton rouge. The only problem is that Ive already had my heart set on being commited to saturate at the HPC. and Ive got to come up with a clever idea to juggle both, any ideas?? Maybe the church will cut me some slack and lemme miss one or two days and still allow me to pass? Or maybe playmakers will cut me some slack and lemme miss a bit to do saturate. Idkk. but Help!

okayy aside from that, today was another exciting day at school, right? Well, not really. I gotta tell ya...kids my age in a public school such as mine...can be quite the downer. It seems i cant get through a single day without hearing about some kid either getting drunk, getting high, or getting pregnant. I mean, the stuff that comes out of these people's mouth is downright filth. Maybe im just a hardcore christian. but its sad. And lately, it seems like my friends are becoming victims of the whole high school allusion as well. Yeahh, thats right. The allusion...the allusion that you have to constantly prove yourself to people by doing stupid stuff that you know is wrong. Which isnt true. I mean, half the time, those pepople their always trying to impress could honestly care less about them. I just wish they would wake up and realize that their is soo much more to life than the last drug they did, or the last party they got drunk at. I mean, do any of you bloggers ever feel like your the only one standing up for what you believe in while everyone else just lets these things get the best of them? If so, please share. But until then, Ill just keep doing the way I do and hope for a better tomorow.

Church last night...

was amazing as always. It never really seems to fail.
We had a guest speaker-who was amazing. But somehow his name managed to slip my mind. Shocking, right? *sarcasm* Anyways, He preached on how God cant just be on your list of priorites, he has to be at the top of your list! You cant just give God a part of your life. He has to be your life. It really spoke to me, I just wish alott of people i know could have been there to hear about it. But yeahh, before service though worship was slamming. Kudos to the Healing Place Church/Refuge Band. They were all up there doing an amazing job.
Of corse, it kindaa sucked afterwards when ever my mother who was busy at home watching American Idol forgot to come get me. I know, its sad. She apparently thought i was cathcing a ride home with Eggroll. But obviousl not, as I was stuck waiting in the parking lot for an hour 1/2 after service ended. Im surprised Pastor Dino didnt ask me to lock up. haha. Anyways, thank the lord Ill be getting my license soon soo I can drive that pretty new car sitting in my driveway =]